Ritendra's Blog

After weeks of being in a state of indecision and despondency, I feel writing some facts of life that i have observed during my working days. (not much, just a year). If you thought its the mullah thats everyone is concerned about..well you cant be more wrong. The mullah of crisp green paper counts when you take up the job, but after that everyting is about relationship. I mean your subconscious state of well being. Afterall Humans are emotional beings not rational, whatever professional hierarchy you might be in dosent change your emotional persona overpowering your rational persona. At Brainware, Bisakha, Madhumita, Piyali and Aparupa all of them left within two months of joining not because their salary was low, but they were treated in a high handed manner. So did I. Left the job of teaching Communicative english after one and half month. Treating juniors in a high handed manner and keeping them on the leash is a sure shot method of extracting work....

Last day on my way to central Avenue, to the typesetter, i spotted this store "Oxford Stationary" and there stood on the gate a character straight from Mulk raj Anand's "Coolie" A old man doing ardent toil to forge a little gain, saw some fasting men go forth on hurrying feet. I looked at myself.... Unlike them i work at a University Press, wear polished boots, ironed clothes, carriees an american tourister bag but it was a epiphanic moment for me.... If u peeped in my soul you could see its battled with great grief and fears that borne the conflict of dream-shattering years, wounded with fierce desire and worn with strife....... I took away my gaze and got on the bus........ for this is life.

All of us goes through this phase.... what gift to buy for somebody...Well thats not a decision we take consciously, though we might think we are. Though vulgar it may sound the rationale behind buying gifts depends not on what we can afford but on the economic condition of the receiver. Teenagers dont fall in this category. college goers often take credits to buy gifts for friends and loved ones. But once you are baked by the realities of professionalism and reach middle age, your subconscious changes. At  middle age when you buy gifts, you think of the receivers economic condition... "well i am buyng gift for so n so..he is so rich...if i dont buy costly gift he wont appreciate" n if the receiver is on the lower side of the social hierarchy." haa buy anything cheap... he cant appreciate costly gifts"...while the irony is the "lesser mortal" might have appreciated the costly gift more and as for the "blessed soul".... no gift can make him happ...